life sux. sometimes i just want to give up the fight. i have way too much on my plate right now. i don't know how i am going to survive everything. i am on my last straw. its extremely thin too. i try so hard to stay positive and keep a smile on my face and say that things are getting to me. but thats not try. everything is getting to me. i made a mistake a couple of years ago and i am still dealing with it. i wish i did not make that mistake but i did. i thought it was all behind me but now its not. i have to deal with that and with my credit card number being stolen. I have so much writting i have to do in order to be done this semester. I have about 75 more pages. sometimes it seems like a certain someone doesn't care. maybe he just doesn't realize what i am going through and what i am feeling. but how should i tell him. he has helped me through so much, but can he help me through this. i dont know. i dont know if i want to put him through any of this. sometimes i wish he would make an out of his way trip to see me. like that will ever happen. i wish people's character and word actually mean something. My parents raised me to be of good character and my word to mean something. then why should some low life person be allow to say something that attacks a person of good character. shouldnt this low life person word not be taken seriously? I agree that that low life person is wasting their breath because a good character should not be attacked by someone who is just looking to cause trouble. people at work are getting on my nerves. there are like two especially. one should never have been made a manager because she is useless. the other should not have moved up to assistant because she doesnt not jack. she is useless to. she is so slow a snail moves faster than her. i don't like people coming and pushing me out of the way when i am doing perfectly fine. i so almost walked out today at work because of her. i dont know what to do anymore. i am at whits end just trying to get through each and every day. granted i do have great and awesome friends and family, but that doesn't seem to be enough to help me right now.

well when things can't seem like they can get any worse, they do. When bad things happen why do they happen all at once. Why cant they happen just one at a time. Things started when the power went out and it just continued to build upon each other. I just want things to be ok to be good again. I dont want to deal with these bad things.

Today has sucked. I am reminded of a song entitled "Bad Day" My day was a bad one. it got worse as the day progressed. It started off with things at work. then getting home and finding out that my credit card number was stolen. I had to take care of that. Before I knew it was 6pm wondering where my evening went and if my voice followed. Im lossing my voice :( and I don't like not being able to talk

after 8 days of no power, i finally got my power back on. It has been extremely terrible here. Icy and cold. Rain and snow. It has sucked. I have also been working too much. I need to write my thesis. I am excited to being close to done. School was cnceled till tomorrow. :)